♥ Thursday, 30 October 2008
@ 8:41 pm
went to work in the afternoon.
come back home after work.
reach home yet he not at home.
no point keeping saying sorry.
sorry no cure.
what i wan is action more than words.
if you cant do what you say than don say.
just jolly well get lost alright.
new stock come on monday.
almost all the stock have finish code-ing.
left necklaces only.
like this batch of stock.
really very cut & nice. :)
♥ Wednesday, 29 October 2008
@ 10:16 pm
colder & colder.
maybe i should be the gal that i used to be.
don be so serious in a relationship.
put family & friends more important than putting a boyfriend 2nd in.
not worth it AT ALL.
the more i serious the more painful hurt i will get for myself. :)
why not back to the starting point & start my new life again without any BOYFRIEND around me. :)
will be more happier & not hurtful.
♥ Tuesday, 28 October 2008
@ 10:03 pm
went to junction 8 look for bi present with wei lun.
but hai,
there got nth i like de to get for him de.
all so plain.
wei lun decide to go bugis see.
whose know,
bugis really got the branclet i want for him.
finally got bi present le.
left wei lun & bell bdae present.
this mth my pocket go one holes siax.
cos they bdae all so near to each other. :(
wanna save money again.
wanted to get bi a LV slim bag.
haha.
♥ Monday, 27 October 2008
@ 11:58 pm
i lyk alot of dress & t-shirt..
haha.
have finish the clothing code & prices. :)
only left the accessiors & bag. :)
almost all the clothes has been out on display le.
left some cos out of hanger.
wahahaha.
hey guys,
come down & buy the dress k.
waiting for you all wor. :)
went prawning after work with bi, shi yan & wei lun.
thought that if i will lyk the hobbies that bi lyk,
things will change back to the past.
but i think i'm wrong le.
but will it worth me to do anything for him????
i don know anymore.
i simply just too physical tired liao.
two more days to shu ling ROM le. :)
happy for her & ah boy.
gone through so many problem & finally settle down with each other le. :)
two lovely bird faster give me a baby to play huh.
♥ Sunday, 26 October 2008
@ 11:18 pm
i cant take it too.
in his life,
only computer, his friends are important than me.
got time to ask friends come out and slack, & got time to stare at the computer for hours,
yet cant even have time to accompany me.
i'm just a transparent to him. :(
he only will come tok to me for a few min than back to transparent again.
why cant we like the past, so happy without any misunderstanding or quarreling?
i'm feeling so lost.
like everythings is leaving me & dump me alone.
all his promise is just a broken promise.
♥ Saturday, 25 October 2008
@ 1:06 am
i'm so tired.
& is very very very very very very tired.
nobody understand me than nvm, even you don too.
worst is don even believe wad i say.
i'm tired of thinking to maintance anything.
just lyk wad you told me,
is yours will always be yours.
i have given up.
lasting or seperating is already fine with me le.
♥ Friday, 24 October 2008
@ 3:27 pm
i'm tired of everything.
sorry that i haven grow up yet.
i won disturb you anymore.
you wanna play that.
i surely will play too.
♥ Thursday, 23 October 2008
@ 1:19 pm
i'm going to sick soon. :(
don say till like you understand me well.
whereby YOU'RE NOT.
i finally know how much you have understand me.
i 'm so tired of everything. :(
♥ Tuesday, 21 October 2008
@ 7:38 pm
went to bugis with mummy to go & pai pai.
walk for awhile.
brought a apir of sandal for myself & mummy,
& also a crystal ball for her too.
for her to put her brancelet.
mummy brought a 天龙龟 for us to put in the shop.
for bussiness in good.
thanks mummy. :)
after all the shopping,
went to hongkong cafe to eat.
i love mummy curry rice.
it taste so nice. :)
should have order the same dish as her.
after that go back as mummy rushing for her work.
haha.
at bibi house right now.
he seem so stress with his work.
& he tok to me bout his stress to me,
yet i don know how to console him at all.
felt so helpless & useless.
i cant even console him.
feeling so damn stress with everything around me le.
feeling so tired too.
what should i do to destress myself???
never had any stress from young.
yet now stress come i don even know how to handle it.
really feel so lost siax. :(
♥ Monday, 20 October 2008
@ 11:41 pm
as tml morning accompany mummy go bugis pray.
plus bibi never book out today.
i missing him so much siax.
nth much happen today in the shop.
was quite funny today.
bell & me disturb each other,
wahahaha.
*baobei,
sorry that today i make you disappointed in me.
i promise no more next time.
was really very sorry.
you're the one in my heart.
& the one i loved the most.
lastly I SIMPLY JUST LOVED YOU SO MUCH*
♥ Sunday, 19 October 2008
@ 11:51 pm
Arrr....
what i really want in my life now???
i really don know siax. :(
i feeling so lost in the path i've choose to walk to.
dead soul or kailin?
the past, now or the future?
bi bi booking in tml morning le.
feel so heart pain for him siax.
he's sick now wor,
yet he still need to work & go back camp.
this few night when sleeping keep hearing him coughing non stop.
making my heart so pain yet i cant do anything. :(
feeling so useless & hopeless right now.
hope that he can faster recover.
♥ Saturday, 18 October 2008
@ 11:35 pm
working with ah xiong sister.
you know what,
working with his sister can really make you go crazy.
cos she can start talking non stop siax.
can you imaging when i get inside to the car for work,
she already talking le.
& can keep talking non stop till i reach TPY after work.
she really power la.
can talk whole day without stopping. :(
i also get to learn how to do sales from her.
she really good in doing sales line.
♥ Friday, 17 October 2008
@ 11:00 pm
BiBi finally can off for few days liao.
haha.
kaoz, you know what....
i first time wash clothes siax.
some more is BiBi army clothes wor.
worst is use hands siax,OMGde nor.
is so hard & heavy. :(
but i still feel happy siax.
don know why too.
really have the urge not to tired himself.
have the urge to help him do things willingly.
BiBi really make me change alot.
maybe that is the power of love ba.
i really love BiBi alot alot, no one can replaced him in my heart. :)
♥ Thursday, 16 October 2008
@ 1:42 pm
as Bi went back camp for reservist.
lucky Bi can night out de siax.
if not i gonna miss him till like fuck nor.
yesterday went back to work le.
but was very very boring & tired siax. :(
got to wake my baobei up everyday @ 4.30a.m cos he going back camp.
Bi look smart in army clothing siax.
wahahhaha.
i missing him right now.
see him everyday need to wakek up so early & sleep so late & never get to eat good,
my heart feel so sorrow nor. :(
finally get to eat my mummy cooking now.
it was so nice de nor.
haha.
i love it
wake up late today siax.
than faster go prepare myself as bell they all reaching liao.
stupid nor, everyday wake up early,
they come late, i wake up late, they come early.
hope the time faster pass till 8.30p.m.
than i can faster finish work liao.
wahahahahaha
i'm missing bi so much now!!!
♥ Tuesday, 14 October 2008
@ 1:12 pm
♥ Monday, 13 October 2008
@ 4:17 pm
never went to work yesterday,
hai,
went back home for dinner with family, as celebrating daddy birthday.
should be on 14th de but, bi gg back reservist so move forward for the celebration.
reach home ard 6 plus gg 7.
than pass daddy his present than start eating liao.
alot of food ytd wor,
haha.
daddy and mummy seem to be very happy.
haha. 
finally got to eat together at the same time liao.
last time we eat our own de.
haha.
think only on occasion ba.
haha.
went back TOA PAYOH at 10.30.
reach home help Bi to pack his stuff into his bag.
wow.
can you imaging, i will do all this.
well is my first time too.
my own things also my mummy pack for me.
think Bi really was the one who make me change so much.
don knoe why i have the urge to help me do his things & so on.
have the urge to make him happy.
Bi went back for reservist liao.
kinda miss him siax.
sob sob.
cant see him for the 9 days.
so miserable wor.
poor Bi have to wake up so early today.
never go work today again.
rotting at his house right now.
i miss baby alot wor. :(
faster finish his reservist wor.
♥ Saturday, 11 October 2008
@ 5:11 pm
she got no fault.
i didn't not speak out what others have comment bout the clothes at all,
yet you say things bout me.
when did i serve customer without any smile with me?
when did i serve customer having a attitude with it?
you all say the price i have code is ex.
than NEXT STOCK COME YOU ALL DO IT YOURSELVES, DON ASK ME DO.
if not do this wrong do that also wrong.
sick & tired of everything in this world alright,
how will know how to do sales.
i have try my best to do sales.
but end get comment by people.
in such a short period you all expect me to change everything than,
i'm sorry.
i won change anymore for the sake of anyone or anything.
can anyone tell me what should i do???????
i have change my attitude yet you said again.
should i totally change to another girl that you don even know is who at all.
than let me tell you,
if you really love me than you won ask me to change so much.
if you love the changing i have made de me.
than jolly well leave me alone.
i'm really tired.
i don know what to do to make you happy with me.
everyone asking me,
why they don see a cheerful & happy gp lucky girl anymore.
yet i answer them i don know too,
i don know who am i anymore,
all i know was,
i hate this world
i hate everything.
♥ Friday, 10 October 2008
@ 9:53 pm
just reach home from work.
nth to do right now.
daddy birthday coming soon. :)
arrr.
my hand pain again.
why why why.
i got took my med on time,
why still pain. :(
i miss baby alot right now,
♥ Thursday, 9 October 2008
@ 10:41 pm
Bi today told me he will go prawning today with wei lun,
but end up i saw him at queenways.
he come to shop instead of going to prawning. :)
happy happy.
i ask him why never go prawning,
he say cos he head me sad like that on the phone.
so come down nor.
yeah!!!
so suprised by him. :)
he wait for me to finish my work with wei lun.
thanks alot Bi
finally brought my daddy his birthday present.
Bi went to brought it. :)
hope that he will like the present we had given him.
♥ Wednesday, 8 October 2008
@ 10:08 pm
bi with me, his work don go smooth.
when i not at shop the sales are good, but when i at shop the sales very the KNN.
am i really that suay????
had mac for dinner,
but funny things start to come when i was talking with shu ling.
i ask her whether cheese burger is a happy meal.
as i get one cheese burger for bell than the person ask happy meal?
than i was shocked siax.
don know what going on.
than suddenly show me the toy.
was like OMG.
when that idiot shu ling know bout it,
she keep laughing at me non stop.
wa lao stupid right.
crazy girl nor.
say i buy happy meal.
♥ Monday, 6 October 2008
@ 5:42 pm
waiting for Bi Bi to come back home from his works.
I MISS HIM ALOT .
finally wed can go back work liao.
so happy.
can craps with bell le.
haha.
if not at home so boring.
Bi also busy with his works liao.
not much time for me.
but i understand de. :)
haha.
♥ Sunday, 5 October 2008
@ 12:24 pm
went to SGH ytd at 8 plus.
uni & her bf bring me go :(
as i feel a numb pain with my left hand.
feeling so terrible to bear the pain nor.
from moring till night siax.
whole hands cant move too much nor.
super pain siax.
本来不想跟BI说的。
but scare ltr he found out i kana scold. =(
feeling so boring nor.
bi never talk a single words from me since friday night till ytd night nor.
think if i never told him,
i at hospital think he won talk to me ba.
don't know since when he start to ignore me totally.
sms him, he can don reply me de.
nor call me up anymore when i working. =(
WHY WHY WHY
why things become lyk that siax. =(
busy till no time to talk to me.
i don know too anymore.
think you should know why.
hope you remember what you told me on the 3/10 afternoon.
i will always remember what you say on that afternoon.
& bi, let me tell you.
i rather choose to work than stay at home.
you ytd ask me to rest till wed i feel sianx nor.
my face show that huh still need to rest till wed not because i don want work.
you don understand me in some point at all.
doctor give me one week of MC.
i feel so sianx nor.
i din tell you cos ltr you will think that i don wanna work.
in your heart,
i'm that person who like to rot at home.
than let me tell you,
now i won.
& i won be that girl who listen everything anymore.
you let me becOme like that when you say GIVE ME ABIT MORE TIME.
i miss those times with you guys together.
was really my happy time.
will meet up with you more often soon.
i will make up the time i have lost with you guys de.
I PROMISE.
♥
@ 10:51 am
为你伤心过，
可是不管我做了多少，
到最后原来只是一场游戏一场空。
我要找回我自己。
你走一后我的心好痛
妳的笑 妳的快樂不是我
愛太多想太多
我能感受
他比我適合
如果你伤害我，你会觉得开心，
那你以经做到了。
我的心真的好难受。
愛過恨過哭過也笑過親吻過妳的脆弱
其實我比誰都要懦弱
你知道吗？
不爱我就离开我， 好吗。
原来我爱的人是你不是他，可是你真的上到我好痛
不会在为你掉任何一滴眼泪了，♥ Saturday, 4 October 2008
@ 3:48 pm
Bi nv tell me our 7th month anni.
is it he busy till he forgotten bout it.
Bi sorry wor,
i know you are v v stress & busy with your work,
that why you got no time to accompany me.
i won give you anymore stress le.
you're free or feel like talking to me than talk to me nor.
i wont talk to you or bother you when you not free.
♥ Friday, 3 October 2008
@ 11:19 pm
♥ Thursday, 2 October 2008
@ 9:48 pm
my day was so boring siax.
fianlly SALES has been growing bit by bit,
but not much growing. :(
i want it to be ALOT ALOT ALOT.
Bi went prawing with wei lun again.
Bi has found a new hobbies siax.
haha,
is great for him.
cos since i start working,
i don have much time to accompany him too.
but BI DON NEGLECT ME WOR.
I REALLY LOVE YOU ALOT.
today my cousin raychel & her friends came down & support siax.
my cousin brought alot of necklaces wor.
crazy girl lai de.
brought so many necklaces for what siax.
haha.
total they spend up to........
should be min min to you .
haha.
THANKS ALOT GIRL.
come down again next month kay.
haha.
congrat to KS,
for getting his bike liscence liao.
is good siax.
next year new years can fetch me go pia nian liao.
wahahahahahaha.
don need to sit my daddy car go liao.
haha,
♥ Wednesday, 1 October 2008
@ 4:04 pm
do i suit bi bi?
cos it seem like i don understand him at all.
i don even know
what he wants,
what he liked,
what kind of food he don eat,
what his mind is thinking,
what he bothering about,
why he's not happy,
everythings bout him, i all don't know AT ALL.
is it my changes for him, will make us more lasting & cherish each other more?
or is it he will feel happy?
i have been trying my best to changed.
but the more i wanted to change,
the more i find it difficult to accept the changing i have made.
keep thinking,
why cant he loved me for who i'm but not the one who will change for him?
